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July 2012

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Getting bitter for better..

“May mga bagay bagay talaga sa mundo na kahit nasa sa iyo na ng mahabang panahon kung hindi mo talaga pagmamay-ari, kailangan mong pakawalan para hanapin ang tunay na nagmamay-ari nito”.

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Umiyak na ako ng mas malakas pa sa buhos ng ulan. Nabuhos ko na lahat ng luha ko ng mas mabigat pa sa bumabagyong panahon kamakailan. Nasabi ko na lahat ng hinanakit ko na mas maingay pa sa patak ng ulan. At kahit nagawa ko ng ito, uuwi pa rin ako sa bahay ng wala ng babalikan. 

Marahil kailanga nating tanggapin na may mga bagay bagay na pansamantala lamang - na wala na ung dating sa tuwing matutulog tayo may magsasabing “sana makasama pa rin kita kahit sa panaginip”….At kailangang sanayin ang mga sarili natin na wala na yung mga taong minsan nagbigay ng magandang karanasan sa ‘ting mundo.

Walang bagay sa mundo na permanente kundi pagbabago, may mga bagay man aalis pero ang maganda dun merong darating at darating. Kailangan lang yan ng oras para maghilom lahat ng galos at sugat para sa oras na meron ng dumating hindi man ito tulad ng dati at least buo pa rin at tunay. 

Forgive me for being bitter these past few days. I just don’t like all the things that are happening with me and my ex boyfriend. We tried all the means to fix it but still all the efforts are useless.

Jul 31, 20122 notes
#BitterLungs #For Better or Worst? #I Dont Need This on my Blog #Lifeblogs
“Ang PAG-IBIG parang holdapan. Nasa sa’yo ang desisyon kung ipaglalaban mo ng patayan o bibitaw ka nalang dahil takot kang masaktan.” — Foolin’ Star
Jul 26, 20124 notes
#Fog-ibeg #LoveWord #Words
Day 05 - A picture of you and the person you’ve had the best memories with.

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We grew like we are brothers. We spent our teenage life full of good and funny memories. We may fight because of our differences yet the feeling of friendship remained the same. 

He is my best friend and time proves that. He proved that distance is just a number but can’t ruin the friendship. Sometimes, he is like more than a boyfriend, he always asks if I had already my lunch. He is more than a brother. He is more than a lover. He is the best friend than you can count on.

Happy birthday to him. Wishing him the best. 

May photochallenge pala ako. Muntik na naman mawala sa isip ko to! Hahaha. 

Jul 26, 20121 note
#BFF FOREVER #Happy Birthday Noriel #Lifeblogs #friendship #personal #Photochallenge
Jul 25, 201213 notes
#wordarts #Typos #Move On
New Theme :))

Hello Tumblrmates! How do I spell my Wednesday? Its super B O R I N G ! Since Boss gave me an ample time to rest myself for the most tiring week of my working life, I gave myself straight 8 hours of slumber. Because its raining and I don’t have plans to go outside I have decided to just stay in my room the whole resting days.

Staying in my room really kills me, so I decided to fix my blog and change my theme kasi its so “old school” na. I spent 3 hours searching a neat theme and ended up getting my previous theme author’s design. So here is the theme with fixed header. 

Big thanks to Stijn for this cool and neat theme. ^__^ Gray is everything.

Jul 25, 20121 note
#New Theme #Gray is everything #Neat Theme #Thanks to Stijn
Jul 22, 20125 notes

Thanks Dark Knight for giving me the best Saturday ever. 

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Kahit super ulan sugod pa rin sa mall just to stress out ourselves. 

Actually its not Batman who made my saturday…its Robin! XD *hanudaw?honggulokolungs*

Jul 22, 2012
Please, I'm not yet ready for this.

Just today, around 7am, one of my teammates called my attention to report to HR department asap. I’m a bit nervous coz I don’t have any idea why I should report to HR immediately. I’m under the impression that the very reason why they called my attention is because they are not renewing my contract anymore. But I am wrong, really wrong…

Before entering to the HR’s door, I have this weird feeling that I’m like having polyuria plus vertigo plus severe palmar shaking [i know you experienced this before]. I took a deep breath just to relax myself and to remove some of the negative vibes inside of me.

I was so surprised when the HR manager said that I got promoted as one of the SA’s of the whole program. Gawd, I cant help myself to cry after hearing that good (?) news. At first I am hesitant to accept the promotion cuz I’m not yet ready for it (agad agad? di na pwedeng magisip muna?). And even more hesitant because she told me that I should do the SA job effective wednesday night. Oh em gee, why-so-fast? Its like, uuuhhh oh God, my life changed in just a snap. But I realized that I should take this opportunity because I know it will help me not only to grow professionally but to try new challenges and role also. 

After I got back to my team, my team manager asked me to change my aux to “coaching”.. I cant explain why he was looking me like that. I looked straight into his eyes and I know he has something to tell me.. He hugged me and congratulates me for another promotion — I will be transferring to another LOB which is a great opportunity for improvement to ofcourse to earn more [hahaha]. Oh em gee ulet, this is my dream LOB, at last I made it for almost 6 months. 

2 promotions in just 6 months of stay in the company? Wow huh! I’m so overwhelmed.  <

Its an emotional thing for me because I will be leaving my team again which serves as my comfort zone already.. But I should accept the new changes. Yeah they’re right — the only permanent thing in this world is change. And yet still not ready for this. 

Jul 17, 2012
#personal #Lifeblogs #Npt ready for this

This Month of July, every team in our company needs to have a Team TShirt so I have decided to make an abstract design. Hope they will like it (choosy pa naman sila). Peace team mates!!  

Here is the design at the back of the shirt..

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We decided to describe our attitude in front of our team tshirt…so here’s the way it looks like…watcha think?

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Jul 11, 2012
#Team Tshirt
Alam mo yung feeling na para kayong nanonood ng movie na nag-end na tapos my Part 2 pa pla. :((+

Alam mo yung feeling na more than two weeks na walang communication kasi humingi sya ng time para magisip kung ano ba talaga ang gusto. Oo, hinayaan ko lang na mangyari yun kasi ayokong masira ang buhay ng isang tao ng dahil lang sa akin. For more than two weeks and buong akala ko wala na sya. Ang buong akala ko as in ending na, I tried to call and text him these past few days pero hindi sya ngrerespond. I tried also to reach him sa facebok at twitter nya pero wala paring response. So I came to a conclusion na wala na talaga, I asked him last week kung ending na ba talaga and he replied “Maybe”. So that freaking response made me realized na wala na talaga so I thought I need to move on na. I tried not to think of him everyday pero wala eh, he’s still on my mind every each morning that I’ll go to sleep. 

Then yesterday while we are having our post shift team building to a Korean Resto near Kalayaan Avenue, I received a text message from him. He said…”Ghelo?” and that is it. I know he did only was to check me if I’m still using that phone number. I didnt respond kasi masarap ang pagkain so I focused muna sa pagkain. Then eventually my phone rang and yes, he’s the one on the line. Hindi ko na sana sasagutin ung phone kaso di ko mapigilang ang kamay ko na i-accept yung call. 

I knew na tatapusin na ang samin kaya tumatawag sya, but I was wrong, he was calling pala para sabihin na hindi pa naman tapos ang lahat..na he still cares. He was inviting me to go out today for a lunch pero tumanggi ako (ganda ko teh XD). I asked him kung may girl na ba sya pero unfortunately wala pa naman. Then he asked me also kung may bago ba ako, but I just said na “still moving on”. Nagreact sya, “Why you move on na, bakit tapos na ba ang lahat?” ####. Line was disconnected so hindi na ako nakabanat. 

Ano ba talaga? Do I need to move on na ba or still have to wait for him? Tongue ina para talaga kaming nanonood ng movie na natapos na kaso may Part 2 pa pala. If i were given the chance to write the script again, I will make sure na this part will be better than the previous part. 

Jul 11, 20121 note
#ANo ba talaga? #Confusing #Eto na naman #Tah-eng lovelife na toh
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Jul 11, 20122 notes
Jul 1, 20122 notes
#Ghelo #Lifeblogs #personal #Sorry for posting a pic of MINE
Jul 1, 20123 notes
#wordarts #friendship #work mates #with Attari and Riza
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